Yeah so I’m having a really shitty night, so Shawn.. Started student teaching right, I haven’t seen him in over a week. Tonight we were suppose to get together and spend tonight together, he texted me saying “are we still hanging out tonight” I said “yeah! I’m going to the gym for an hour and then I’m ready” he’s like I’m so excited to go out and drink. I said I don’t wanna go to the bar. I hate the bars here, he got mad. Blew me off. Why can’t we just spend the night together without getting wasted… I don’t get it, I just wanna be with you. I even went out and bought him his favorite Chanel Cologne. To show him how proud of him I am. And he gets mad because I don’t wanna go out to a hick.. Hillbilly bar. I mean am I in the wrong? So now I’m alone. And feeling shitty on this Friday night. Overthinking this. Sorry I just wanted it to be us tonight..